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| + | ====== Entry — In transit, Jennifer ====== | ||
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| + | I wish I could have been aware of when Jennifer arrived, but alas we were all babies. The early years have a way of compressing into a single texture rather than a clear sequence of events. What I remember more clearly is the quality she brought into the house with her. A brightness. Jennifer' | ||
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| + | She worked harder than most of us. That's the thing I keep coming back to. Some of the siblings had power that announced itself — impossible to miss, impossible to suppress, forcing the father' | ||
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| + | The public loved Liquidator. I watched that from a distance after I left — the occasional headline, the coverage that came with being one of the more photogenic members of the remaining Academy. She had a facility with the heroic persona that some of the others didn' | ||
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| + | What I wonder about, on this train, is the gap between the smile and whatever is behind it. The smile I remember was real — she was a child, it was real — but the smile in the later photographs has a quality to it that I find difficult to read from a distance. Too present. Too consistent. The smile of someone who has decided the smile is load-bearing and cannot be put down. | ||
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| + | //I understand the logic. When the thing you actually wanted — the second glance, the acknowledgement, | ||
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| + | //I just keep thinking about the smile. About what it costs to hold an expression that permanently. About what's resting underneath it waiting for somewhere safe enough to put it down.// | ||
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| + | //I don't know if the mansion is going to be that place. I suspect it isn't. But I'm going to pay attention.// | ||